I really failed myself to be a good boyfriend ):
Always quarrel with my beloved girlfriend!
When i can peace down myself and treat her how she is supposed to be treated.
No matter how hard i do things to her or how nice i treated her. I ought to stir things and quarrel with her just because of my wrong judgement.
I dislike people to judge me! But why am i judging her?
WHY! I am hate myself! Judge and judge and judge! What is so good about it!? I seriously do not want to hurt my girlfriend! Why have my weaknesses hurt her so much?
Chances and chances were given by her, i did not appreciate and learn from mistakes. Why is it so PAINFUL when i realise my weaknesses of having a relationship? I do not want to hurt anyone! But why does i failed again and again!
Nicolette complains her stress to me and not to anyone because she feel i am the right person but why i failed to be her listener? Have i really changed? If yes! Please wake up my idea and be the usual me!
I hated myself!